I'm Back But With Reservations

A number of you blamed yourselves for me leaving but in fact I blame the way things have gone lately on myself a small bit and Quasi a big bit. I'm certainly guilty of the over praising of Ami or perhaps I'm not and neither is Quasi but between the 2 of us it became too much, I did tell him lately that I was worried that if we didn't give it a rest Ami would become the most hated character. I've ranted about the dub and first anime Rei and Jadeite too much I admit and I especially have ranted about real life and humanity. My only excuse for any of the ranting is that my mental health is at an all time low this year and I've been bored since February, about the longest streak of continual boredom in my life although looking objectively it's been one of the better years in terms of family life. I didn't realise when I left that people would blame themselves or that literally everyone who was around at the time that I left would want me back and so in retrospect I was wrong to leave, I thought my mistake was not leaving a long time ago but actually I should never have left at all. I saw a community fall apart before and it was not a pretty sight. If even Len is willing to get along with Quasi then so am I, I tried to be the guy in between who would hold this tongue or even protest in a lighthearted way so I hope I haven't come across as being mean to him, I don't want to be mean to anyone and I don't hate anybody, I used to hate humanity in general and I still have a low opinion of humanity but I have good reasons for not hating people any more. I still think this community is doomed and that the ship is sinking so let's get as much stuff together now and head for the escape pods then meet up again elsewhere. I want to be with my Triumvirate (Elle, Len and Liz) for as long as I live and, if possible, forever. They're 3 of the few nice people in this horrible planet and they're so nice that I'm stunned at how lucky I am for once. Last year if someone had said that I'd be comfortable around not 1 but 3 girls and not only that but would get long very well with this small blonde haired blue eyed girl from New Jersey, a tall Latina (there are virtually no Latinas in Ireland) and a small Texan (I love how none of us are of average height, which is cool since I like tall and small, I can see the upsides of both) I'd tell them to get lost but this year it's a reality, one of the few good things in my life. I'm back alright but don't get too excited, let's prepare ourselves to move elsewhere but let's do it together and all at the same time. Everyone can come and in the meantime let's all stay here and get along.